Being an ENTJ, one of my quirks is that I’m really good at recognizing problems. The next logical step is to solve them, or at least try to solve them for someone else. My methods are…well… methodical. But by the time I met Edward, I was on a dangerous path of self harm. I wasn’t… Continue reading How I Used Kink To Change Bad Habits
More non scale victories! I haven’t had a Redbull in almost a month, and have cut back on coffee. I’m drinking more green tea now. I’ve been logging my calories for 32 days now on Myfitnesspal (first goal hit!) I haven’t skipped a meal in over a month. There were a couple of days where… Continue reading More NSVs
(Dedicated to my runners out there) At some point, you stop fighting. You retreat, you’ve lost. You pack up your emotions, neatly, in a box and tuck them away. And you run. You don’t turn back. You don’t look back. You keep going. As far as your feet can carry you. Until you’re a different… Continue reading Running
It feels good to have you back in my life, even as just a friend and not my dom. I missed your voice and your laugh and your kissy faces. And I missed you not flinching from my sarcasm, being interested in my well being, being there for me. I missed hearing you ramble on about… Continue reading Dear Friend
“I think my vagina is broken.” “What?” “Yeah.” “Your vagina is not broken.” “How would you know?” “You’re just really stressed. And sad.” “Yeah, but I’ve been really stressed before and it’s always worked. I can’t get turned on. I have no desire anymore…for anything.” “Ariel, when you deal with the rejection you’ve dealt with, it’s… Continue reading Vagina Monologues
Like today….where you can barely function. You walk in to work in a catatonic state. You paste a wide smile on your face so that people won’t be suspicious. You dart off to the bathroom to cry your eyes out before drying them, reapplying your smile and interacting with other normal human beings again. Today… Continue reading One of Them Days
I’ve said it 1,000 times. I’ve always been kinky. And I’ve said a 1,000 times that my husband is vanilla. Someone asked me why I ended up with a vanilla husband. It dawned on me that when we were young and I was doing all of this freaky deaky stuff to him, he was onboard because… Continue reading Revelations
Whenever people call me smart, I chuckle. I don’t think I’m smart at all. I certainly have a hard time with things that should be obvious. But you know what they say! Hindsight is 20/20. It’s been five days since I left home. In that span of time, my husband has been replaced by this super… Continue reading Aftermath
The next day I come back to our home after work. Daughter is super excited to see me, and she melts my heart. I take a few moments to inhale her scent. Never again, lady bug. Husband comes up to me and attempts to hug me. I pull away. “I’m still not okay,” I say. “I… Continue reading So I left…part IV
Yay! I’ve made it 100 posts. Very cool. 🙂
A Little Fringe 