Lyrics: We clawed, we chained, our hearts in vain We jumped, never asking why We kissed, I fell under your spell A love no one could deny Don’t you ever say I just walked away I will always want you I can’t live a lie, running for my life I will always want you I… Continue reading Wrecking Ball – Miley Cyrus (2013)
The title pretty much explains it. Husband and I had another fight last night. He got super angry….the angrier he got, the cooler my attitude got. He called me an ice queen and stormed out. When he left, I sat down on the bed with my daughter and just….started to cry. It happened unexpectedly. I… Continue reading I cried in front of my toddler and it’s bothering the fuck out of me.
I’m stubborn as shit…well, maybe not as stubborn as Daddy but still I can hold my own. And I’m really struggling to move past the negative emotions that have built up in my marriage and focus on our future–whatever that holds. My husband is trying and I sincerely appreciate his efforts. I’m trying to work… Continue reading The Road to Forgiveness
Being an ENTJ, one of my quirks is that I’m really good at recognizing problems. The next logical step is to solve them, or at least try to solve them for someone else. My methods are…well… methodical. But by the time I met Edward, I was on a dangerous path of self harm. I wasn’t… Continue reading How I Used Kink To Change Bad Habits
More non scale victories! I haven’t had a Redbull in almost a month, and have cut back on coffee. I’m drinking more green tea now. I’ve been logging my calories for 32 days now on Myfitnesspal (first goal hit!) I haven’t skipped a meal in over a month. There were a couple of days where… Continue reading More NSVs
“I think my vagina is broken.” “What?” “Yeah.” “Your vagina is not broken.” “How would you know?” “You’re just really stressed. And sad.” “Yeah, but I’ve been really stressed before and it’s always worked. I can’t get turned on. I have no desire anymore…for anything.” “Ariel, when you deal with the rejection you’ve dealt with, it’s… Continue reading Vagina Monologues
Like today….where you can barely function. You walk in to work in a catatonic state. You paste a wide smile on your face so that people won’t be suspicious. You dart off to the bathroom to cry your eyes out before drying them, reapplying your smile and interacting with other normal human beings again. Today… Continue reading One of Them Days