100th Post
Yay! I’ve made it 100 posts. Very cool. 🙂
So I left…part III
​When I woke the next morning, I realized I had slept more than a few hours. That was a first. Daddy’s leaving meant I didn’t have an outlet which meant insomnia. I think I exhausted myself with the crying and ended up sleeping through the night. I went to work and cried. I called Husband… Continue reading So I left…part III
So I left…part II
We make it back home and put the kiddo down. I sit down next to him and begin to explain that him snapping at me for spilled coffee was not ok. Something’s wrong. I think we should go to marriage counseling. He reluctantly agrees, but also says he doesn’t think it’ll matter because “the therapist… Continue reading So I left…part II
So I left…part I
I came back, of course, because my daughter is my life and I’ll never be without her. But I left. For two days. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my entire life. Hands down. Incredibly painful. Cried (like, ugly crying) for hours on end. Could barely hold it together at work. Today… Continue reading So I left…part I
NSV
I just have to share because I’m super fucking proud of myself: For the past few weeks, I’ve been eating at least three meals a day. That’s right, no skipping. Even when I was upset, I made sure to grab a salad. I’m on an 11 day streak on Myfitnesspal. Today is Saturday. I usually… Continue reading NSV
Tired.
So it’s happened. Daddy’s life has changed (for the better). I don’t expect to hear from him any time soon and would probably scold him if I did. He needs time to readjust and refocus. We didn’t officially break up. He said he’d reach out when he had a chance. He has my full support… Continue reading Tired.
Numbness
Everything hurts. My left shoulder is throbbing. I can feel my spine ache every time I exhale. Got up this morning and stumbled around on swollen, painful feet. Everything hurts but I’m numb. It takes me 30 minutes to gain enough momentum to get ready for work. I operate on autopilot, noting at one point… Continue reading Numbness
Withdrawals
It’s been five days, 11 hours, and 10 minutes since I’ve had strong caffeine. I went in to the doctor on April 26th and was told that I have a heart  murmur and bursitis in my knee on top of my other usual ailments. I was pretty nonplussed about the murmur until he dropped the… Continue reading Withdrawals
Punishment
My tits hurt. I’m sitting, or rather lying, here with these blasted nipple clamps on because I told Daddy in a roundabout way that I needed a funishment. Then he remembered that I had broken a rule today…and decided a real punishment was needed instead. So I get to wait here while he walks the… Continue reading Punishment
Breakup? Take 2!
Well, we haven’t really broken up per se. We’re just…slowing down. T-minus 2-3 weeks. It’s bittersweet. Us winding down is much, much better than us going cold turkey. His life is beginning to pick up pace. Over the past week, our everyday, all day chatting has been cut down to a few short messages. Our phone… Continue reading Breakup? Take 2!
A Little Fringe 