I’ve been trying to figure out how to put all of these deep, brooding but random thoughts I have going on in my head into an articulate post but it’s not working lol. So let’s do a light recap list:
1) Remember that friend that tracked me down when I went dark? He’s my new sir now. I mean, this shouldn’t come as a surprise. He’s been acting in a dominant capacity for the past few months: refusing to let me exist on candy and caffeine (what is it with him and Husband being anti-candy??), checking in almost every single day, being a voice of reason when I’m hating myself for my kinks, reminding me how sexy and smart and funny he thinks I am. The dynamic was there. We just added the title.
2) Husband continues to explore kink in the bedroom when we have the time. We’re obviously better when I have a kinky outlet and all of the pressure isn’t on him to fulfill my needs or me to suppress them. Things have been better…a lot calmer.
3) I bought a pacifier and was then like OMG WHY DID I WAIT SO LONG TO BUY A PACIFIER? Husband saw them but didn’t say anything about them. I didn’t mention them to him either. I think this is one of those things we’ll just pretend isn’t there until he’s comfortable with the idea. Obviously Daddy likes them.
4) I went to my second munch. A lot of fun, met some nice new people in the lifestyle.
All in all I’m surviving. Work hasn’t been crazy so that’s nice. My health hasn’t been in all over the place so that’s also nice. And with my friend/Daddy’s help I’m still working on processing my emotions and thoughts about kink.